Saturday, December 20, 2014

Grief During the Holidays

Why is it that during the holidays or on important days in our lives that our grief comes to the forefront?  That we miss our loved ones more?  Everyone says absence makes the heart grow fonder, in the case of grief it just makes the heart ache.  Since we lost Mitchie just after Christmas last year, it has especially made this Christmas hard.  We are trying to make our own traditions now so that we can continue to move forward.

There is one person that helps:

We feel grief just like God does.  Imagine how He felt when Adam and Eve disobeyed Him in the Garden, when His people refused to obey his commandments, or how He felt when He had to turn His back on His Son when He was nailed to the cross.  The Good Lord understands more than we think.  When you think the grief is too much to bear, turn to Him, He understands.  He is the ultimate comforter.  Pour your grief out to Him and He will comfort you.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Busy, Busy, Busy.....AAAHHHHHH Not another thing to do!

I have been woefully neglectful of my blog lately.  Life interrupts everything.

Let's see so much has happened lately where to begin?

The weekend after I came back from SAFF both of my cars broke down within a week of each other.  I gave my inlaws back Mitch's car because I couldn't afford to fix it anymore (they own the car).  Both cars have been in the shop 4 times this year.  The week after I returned the car to the inlaws my car had major engine failure.  Not fixable.  So, I had to get the car back from the inlaws to drive until I got a new car.  In the mean time I was painting my craft room.  I had some kind of issue, my hands shaking so badly I couldn't do anything, type, text, nothing, had numbness and tingling too.  Lasted for several days.  Spent over $300 for the doctors to shake their heads and shrug.  May need to change my anxiety meds, been on them for several years now.  We drove down to see the eldest and her roommates for Thanksgiving and I made all of us dinner complete with desserts.  When we got back I started looking for a car.  Friday after work, Maggie and I went shopping, didn't get home until very late.  Saturday up bright and early and went and found a car.  I ended up with a sunny yellow beetle.  I'll will post pics this evening.  Then Maggie and I went shopping again.  See, a trend here?  I have needed new living room furniture for quite some time now so last night Maggie and I went shopping again, I picked out new furniture, most of it to be delivered on Friday, two chairs to come in later.  Then I went and did more shopping.  Still forgot to get two gift cards so I'm going to run out to lunch and get them.  I have not been taking very good care of myself, stress, working, and raising a child by myself has taken a toll lately.  My shoulders and neck are so tight that moving at times is difficult.  So, I am going to go buy a couple of massagers to help with that.  One that is for my neck and the other for my back, in hopes that it will help my muscles to relax.  And I may possibly be purchasing a treadmill for myself to get more exercise.  Don't know about that just yet.  I have to move furniture around and get things set for the new stuff coming in, I have two Christmas trees that need to be put up, one of which I need to purchase, and I have to finish up some last minute gifts.  Work on the upside has been much calmer.  One of the girls left, the "pot stirrer" we say to be polite, and the office has been so much better.  We are all getting along and working together, IT'S GREAT!!!  Means more work, hence no 1/2 day Friday's for me but it also means more pay for which I am very grateful.  Well, I'm going to go for now, I'll post pictures for you later of all the stuff I've been doing and making.

Have a Blessed day!

Monday, December 1, 2014

Change is a Comin'

Storm moved through last night.  Didn't hear much in the way of thunder or see any lightening but boy it poured; all night long.  I love the rain.  It means we have plenty of ground water, and I sleep so good to the sound of the rain coming down.  It's peaceful.  The wind started blowing yesterday cooling the air and it will continue to cool throughout the day.  The trees here are barely changing, while on the mountains they are beautiful.  I walked out to find my lawn and porches covered with maple leaves this morning.  Don't know if we will get much color this year due to the rain.

This storm has brought change with it.  The end of a long hot summer and the beginning of fall.  I love fall.  The crisp leaves, the smell of the earth, the chill in the air, hot cider, hot chocolate and my hand knits!

Seasons change, and like the seasons, so do our lives.  This reminds me of a verse that I really like:

Ecclesiastes 3

1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: 2 A time to be born , and a time to die ; a time to plant , and a time to pluck up that which is planted ; 3 A time to kill , and a time to heal ; a time to break down , and a time to build up ; 4 A time to weep , and a time to laugh ; a time to mourn , and a time to dance ; 5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together ; a time to embrace , and a time to refrain from embracing ; 6 A time to get , and a time to lose ; a time to keep , and a time to cast away ; 7 A time to rend , and a time to sew ; a time to keep silence , and a time to speak ; 8 A time to love , and a time to hate ; a time of war, and a time of peace. 

Even war has it's time. There is a reason for everything we go through and a season for it.  Think of this God made us in His image so, it stands to reason that He has the same emotions we do.  Then think that God sent his Son, a part of Himself, to earth to experience everything that we experience.  He knows what we go through and if we believe, He is with us through everything.  Leaning on the Lord for strength is a relief.  Knowing that you can get through anything and that there is someone waiting to help you, if you ask, is freeing.  So many believe that to have faith in God is to be a slave-you can't have anymore fun.  That is a lie that Satan himself spreads.  Belief is so freeing.  Then there are those that say that we shouldn't have any problems if we believe, that is another lie.  God did not promise us that we would not have problems, trials, or heartache, He promised us that He would be with us when we have them.  His Son died for us so He has experienced grief; but He has also experienced joy at being reunited with His Son.  Much like we will experience when we are reunited with our loved ones when He returns.  Take strength from that.  Also take strength from knowing you are not alone.  There are so many people that experience the same things we do-love, heartache, loss, grief.  Others...my church family...they have experienced the same things and they lift me up and hug me tight. If you are not a believer, I urge you to become one.  The sense of family in the body of believers is strong.  We are called to help one another along.  Find someone to help you along if you are in need.  Message me, I'll be happy to talk to you.

God Bless

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

So Much Going On

I had a nice long post and I put it on the back burner for a while so I can think about it more.  My life has been nuts.  Feels like nonstop going everyday.  I'm ready for Thanksgiving so I can have some time off.  I am getting burned out.

Maggie has settled in to her new school.  She's joined the Beta Club and is working concessions at basketball games.  She's had friends over the last couple of weekends.  It's go go go, all the time.  Wears me out some days.

I have stalled on my craft room right now.  I need to pick out paint but first I've got to spackle the walls.  Maggie did some damage trying to take down a blind and now I've got to fix it before I can paint.

This weekend we did a whirl wind trip to Asheville, NC to SAFF!!!  My friend Mary wanted to go and so Mary, Maggie and I hopped in the car and off we went.  Six hours round trip but it was so worth it!  I wandered around with my mouth hanging open most of the time.  WOW  I made some lovely purchases too.  Maggie got a shawl at Miss Bab's booth and a skein of yarn from another place.  Here's the purchases I made for myself:

This is 1/2 lb of combed Cormo Top.  Undyed so I will probably be dying it at some point.

 This is German Poleworth, 1 oz each of Cream, Light Teal and Dark Teal.  Just because I liked the colors.
 This was Maggie's choice.  I told her if I spun it that she had to knit it.  Very Bright!
 
And this is the reason I bought the fibre!  An Ashford Traveler, used once for 400.00.  It's in fab condition, doesn't look like it's been used so I couldn't resist.  Been thinking about spinning for a while and now I can get started.  I started working just the peddles and am hoping to get started with some help from a friend this weekend.

Well, If I keep going this post will be very long so I'll close for now.

Have a great week!

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Completing Projects and Planning and SAFF

First my FO's:

 My finished Siren Sleeves made with Gnome Acres Backwoods Gnome on size 6 needles.
 An Oak Leaf and Flowers for my friend Denise for her stick tree.
Completed hat for my Grandma with a pin I found at an antique store.


I am still working on my Nurmilintu in Gnome Acres Stars Hollow.  I'm in the first lace section.  This is a learning experience for me, I haven't done a pattern with a chart before.  It's interesting and I'm starting to get the hang of it.  I have another shawl on the needles but I'm not happy with it so I think I'll be looking for another pattern for it because it's a special yarn that my friend Elly dyed and I want it to be pretty.  I have my stalled sweater on the needles and I'm going to pull it back out and start working on it again.  I am also still working on the stuff for my friend Heather's kids.  I need to get it finished. 

On another front I finished my bathroom on the 6th.  It would have been my 13th anniversary and I took the day off.  I went to Mitch's grave and put flowers out.  Then instead of wallowing in my grief I finished my bath.  I could hear Mitchie fussing in my head because I have taken 10 months to finish it.  I think it turned out nice.  Before and After:









I have other projects I want to do.  One major one is my craft room.  I need to get some paint and hole filler and get the walls done.  I'm going to have Maggie finish taking the wall paper boarder off the walls and then I can get started.  I'm still dragging my feet on what I want to do but I'll get it figured out.

On the knitting front, I have lots of yarn that I want to make things with.  I haven't decided on what I want to do yet.  Finishing my sweater is first other than my shawl.

Now, for traveling plans!!!  I am going to SAFF!!!  I was chatting with a friend of mine this weekend and she said she'd like to go but her husband is working and she doesn't want to go alone.  So, Maggie and I are going!  I've never been before and I am so excited to be going!  I promises to be a good time.

I went to the apple orchard with my sil this weekend and ended up with another bushel and 1/2 of apples and 8 pie pumpkins.  I am going to be cooking like a wild woman.  I cook the pumpkins down and put them in the freezer and I am planning on making apple sauce and apple pie filling and canning them. 

Well, gotta go check on dinner.  You all have a great week.