Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Finally have internet again....

I finally have home internet again.  I've been almost two months without it.  It's not been fun for me because I am so far behind on my podcast watching that it's going to take me a while to catch up.  I am listening to one now while typing.

So much has been going on that I don't know where to start.

My youngest started back to school and I had someone to watch her-for a week- and then she couldn't watch her anymore.  I was going to ask my sil that lives close to me to take her after school but it wasn't going to be convenient for her.  I talked to my brother and he told me to move her over to his kid's school and they would take her after school for me.  I really think it was meant to be because two days after we talked about it everything was set up and she started at the new school on Monday.  She likes her teachers and the kids she goes to school with.  She was upset the first day I told her and since then she's been fine.  After school, at least two days a week she will be doing martial arts training.  My niece and nephews are doing it and since she was sitting there doing nothing my sil asked her if she wanted to join.  She tried it out and loved it and so..... She will also be doing softball as well.  The basketball coach wants to recruit her but she doesn't want to do it, she wants to stick to softball.

Things at work came to a head finally and my boss, the office manager and I had a long conversation about stuff going on in the office.  I cleared the air.  He didn't have much to say but at least I said what I wanted.  We'll see if things change in the months to come.  He's considering letting one of his assistants go and I hope it's the one I would really like gone.  I do still have feelers out for a new job.  If my brother gets the stores he's trying to buy, I hope to go back to work for him.

I will be working some this summer I hope, I talked to my friend this weekend and she wants me to come back to work with her.  We have so much fun together even when we are working int he awful heat.  I love her and she blesses me so much when I spend time with her.

On the knitting front, I have finished several things but I have to block them and as soon as I have them blocked I will be taking photos and putting them up for you to see.  I have finished 3 shawls and a cowl.  Right now I am working on another cowl, and a hat for my grandmother.  I have a sweater on the back burner that I need to pull out and get finished.  It just needs the sleeves and the banding around the whole sweater.  I'll be taking my knitting to the marshal arts studio to knit while wating for Maggie. 

Maggie's room is nearly set up.  I have a few things left to pick up for her room and some stuff to hang posters on the wall and it'll be done.  She's loving having her own room with a door that closes.  I hope she keeps it neat.   I need to finish painting my bathroom and then I need to get the stuff out of Maggie's old room so I can get that decorated to my taste.  I really want a pretty color and I want bible verses to put on the walls.  Will have to find special things for the walls.  One friend that has been painting, painted a picture for me and will be sending it and she says it goes in my craft room.  I have commissioned a friend to do a felt picture for my bedroom.  I need something for my bathroom too.  Once "the Craft Room" is finished I have to get the desks and my cabinet in the room with the extra dresser.  I think I'll have enough room just have to create.  I also want a cube thing to put my yarn in. 

Eventually the dining room will be back where it's supposed to be, the den will be the den and then my living room will have a couch!  We having had one in years! 

I really need to do a spreadsheet of yarns and projects that I need to do and put it in order.  I need to do the same thing with projects that I want to do in the house in a order that is manageable. 

Ok, I think I have blathered enough.  I hope you have a lovely weekend and a nice holiday.

God Bless and Keep You and May His Face Shine Upon You


Sunday, August 10, 2014

Relaxing Today

I had "girls night" with the ladies from our Sunday School Class.  It  was great as always.  I really enjoy sitting down and chatting with everyone.  The ladies in my class are all close  Maggie spent the night with a friend so I was home alone last night.  I slept until 10 am when the child came home long enough to change clothes and go somewhere else with her friend and her family.  So I am having a relaxing morning, enjoying my coffee and puttering around on the computer.  I have managed to clean both bathrooms with the exception of the floors, which will be done by lunch time.  Then I will tackle one room at a time until the house is clean. Hopefully Maggie will be home at some point to help with the cleaning.  Yes, I knot, I said Relaxing, but that's what I'm doing.  Cleaning is not bad for me.  I'm doing it on my time instead of rushing to get everything done in a rush so I am relaxing.

On the knitting front, I am going slow but steady.  I have completed my Lefty shawl, completely in love with it and will definitely make another one!  My Nymphedelia shawl is coming along.  I am also working on a blanket for a friend's little girls to share with mommy, for when they are reading stories or just snuggling.  when I get that blanket done then I will be making one for her sons and husband too.  My office cardi has taken a back seat for now but it will be picked up and finished before long.  My tank is hibernating right now, I don't like the pleats in it so I have put it aside for now.  I did find a pattern for the beautiful lace yarn I purchased from FO & Dye.  It's called No Fuss Shade Loving Shawl.  Looks like it's fairly simple.  I have lots of other things in my que that need to be worked on but I'll get to them soon.

Maggie starts school soon.  Thankfully my sil and her friends mom have offered to keep her after school until I get off from work.  I have bought her school supplies and some clothes.  I will have to buy her some jeans later on.  She's still growing so I figured I would wait until she needs them before I buy them.

Well, I'm off.  Going to go get a second cup of coffee and get back to cleaning.  I hope all of you have a blessed weekend.

***Up Coming***
I will be redoing Maggie's room and making it into my craft room and she will be moving into her sister's room.  She

Sad Weekend Revelation

My eldest left home yesterday, she's moving 6 1/2 hours away from us.  It's sad.  I am happy for her and it's time for her to start her own life but she's been my companion since Mitch died.  She helped me with stuff that needed done and I could talk to her like an adult and tell her things that I cannot share with my youngest.  It was nice.  Now, I am back to being a single parent with a child.  I never dreamed I would be here again.  I was, just this, when I met Mitch, a single parent struggling to make ends meet.  Who would have thought that 13 years after we married, I would be back in the same position again?  It's scarey and daunting and sad.  Then I stop to think that it'll be just me in 6 short years when she graduates from high school.  I have the feeling that my life will be over.  Where do I go without having a husband or a child to care for.  Then I think it will be an opprotunity to start over.  To move, start a new career, fall in love again.  Do something I've always dreamed of doing.  I would love to something new!  To grow outside my box, be someone different, do something, create something, BE something.  When I look at my life I find it defined by my roles, rather than who I am.  I am defined as a mother, a wife/widow, daughter, an employee, a sister.  There is so much more to me that I want people to see.  To define me by what I do, who I am, and the roles I fulfill. 

These lyrics stand out to me right now:

By Tenth Avenue North

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

I am being remade.  The potter has put me back into the furnace to refine me further, so I can serve His purpose.  The trials we face and the things we learn during them are what God uses to make us better for His use.  We were, after all, made for His pleasure.    When people think of me, I not only want to be thought of as a loving wife who lost her beloved husband, or a mother to two beautiful girls, I want to be thought of as someone who cared for people and showed compassion, a creative person in so many ways and using her gifts to help those that the Lord leads her to help.  I want to be know as one who gives freely of her time and money for others. 

God gave me so much when he blessed me with my children and my husband and yes He took my husband for His own reasons.  I am not mad though.  Through all of the agony of what has happened, my constant prayer has been thank you Lord.

We were talking in Sundays School about joy in the trials.  I don't have joy, I have peace.  My ss teacher asked me what would happen to me if I didn't have that peace and I said I don't know.  He asked me if I would kill myself, I said I don't know, he asked me if I was scared of what would happen if I didn't have the Lord giving me  His peace and I said yes.  I am frightened of what would have happened if I hadn't had my faith and the peace given to me.  My constant prayer Thank You Lord!

 There  is a reason for what happened, and maybe some day I will be able to ask the Lord the purpose.  But in all honestly, it doesn't matter.  Everything done is done for the Glory of God!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Finished Project

I know I have been promising pictures of projects and I finally have one to post.  Here is my Leftie, I still have to weave in some ends but I'm very happy with it.  Excuse the picture, it was taken late at night and I was tired!


Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Ramblings

I think I've mentioned a new addition to our family, a little calico kitten named Poppy.  She is the sweetest thing and she's a talker.  She squeeks, chirps, and growls.  She has fit into our little family very well, she adjusted to Samson and Winston and plays with them a lot.  It's funny to see Samson, who is a BIG cat, not fat, he's BIG, chasing this little tiny petite kitten through the house, but, she loves it.  Last night she decided she wanted to sleep on me.  Samson does the same thing, he will, when I am on my side, lay in the curve of my body with his head on my shoulder.  Poppy did that last night and I could feel her tail curving around my back.  It was so sweet and she lulled me to sleep.  Simple things in life that need to be appreciated.

My computer issues abound.  It's so funny.  Get my laptop and get ready to get back on line and I lose internet connection.  They were giving me a hard time about fixing it so, I told them to disconnect the service and my home phone.  I went through my cell company and they are cheaper!  I don't need a home phone, I have my cell and 2 gigs is only 19.99 so, that's what I did.  After having said all that, my internet time will be limited from now on.  But honestly, on the way to work I started thinking about how much time is sucked away by the computer.  I spend way too much time on the computer, hours every evening, playing games, watching videos, and just putzing around.  So, I think this is a good thing.  My youngest is not happy with me, she won't be able to stream videos anymore but neither will I.  I will have to reserve my video watching until I am somewhere with free wifi.  So, I think, it's a good thing.  I will have more time to do other things.  I will check my email, check facebook, and ravelry and blogger and then I'll be done for the night. 

On the crafting front, I have my niece's veil to finish, and bracelets for her bridesmaids to make and then I'm done with the wedding stuff.  I need to get started on her gift.  I'm making her pot holders, and wash clothes and table trivets for her gift.  And I have a newsboy cap to make for my grandmother.  She asked for one and of course I have to make it.

Well, time for me to begin my work day.  You guys have a blessed week and I'll post again later.